mellow driving me crazy!

i didnt know what exactly i feel today, now.
i'm sleepy but i dont want to sleep.
i'm bored in sms but i dont want home.
i'm bored with all my plan but i should do.
i'm tired to type but i want posting.
i'm sad but i'm happy.
i'm happy but i disappointed.
i wanna laugh but how?
i wanna cry but why?
i want to change my decision of all the stupid things i've done but i cant
i wanna do all the things i want but i'm tired
i wanna talk to you, but i dont want
i wanna chat with you, but i'm tired
i wanna like him, but i'm sick of him

and suddenly, i want to spending time with yamagusbi's twins. tieycie :DD ♥♥ you both.
long time ago spent days together.
watch korean dramas,manicure,go to salon,gossips,etc.
i did miss others, but i surely did miss them bigger than others,SOULMATE *in lebai's vocab*
cant wait to see them :DD

or BACK to junior high school time. when i saw everything was good, wasn't a problem, when we can did all the things we want, without having BIG responsibility cause we were too young :[ maybe i should take a new air, new place,new people without leaving this comfort zone :(
i am a young girl who dont want to become a woman cause I enjoyed this teens so MUCH.
but what should i do to stop this time?

~i'm not a GIRL, not yet a WOMAN.
i think i should do something to refresh my mind from all this sucks things